Loosing Control

Today God said to me as clear as day, "Your job is not to fix it. Your Job is to trust me." That cleared all of my anxiety to know that God is right by my side. It gave me assurance that God was not watching my life (ride this roller coaster), but is involved in my life. As a husband, father, preacher, and business owner I realized that most of the times I am working out plans to fix problems. Most of my day is spent on coming up with ideas on how to make things better. Even my prayers at times are asking God to bless my ideas and efforts. Therefore, I realize that far too often I am trying to drive the car, and not allowing God to drive. Far too often I am busy attempting to come up with ideas to make things work smoother, but God clearly said to me, stop trying to fix it, trust me.

And what I have come to understand is that giving God total control is one of the hardest things I have ever done in my life. Now I am not saying that I am going to stop acting and moving in the right direction, but I see that the things I can't change, I shouldn't force it, allow God to work, and He can do what I can't do. Loosing Control to God is what Paul suggest when he says to die daily. The hard part is knowing that he will work on your behalf, but when, and how is the problem.

Either way - I have lost control